Welcome! Introduce yourself here 🙂

[calmsoul]

@ShiningStar hello and thank you for your reply.

I'm getting used to putting the symbol next to name . Slowly but surely becoming more tech savvy 🤣

Yes, I so run away now, more with people who trigger my ptsd.  These are unfortunately family members. 

I used to, "kick, fight and scream" , (an analogy there)

But I've learnt that silence and distance is the only way I cope.

I have my son as only immediate family.

I don't feel alone. Weird hey.

But I like a quiet life and being around friends who I love.

I knit. I watch netball and footy

I read books. I actually like grocery shopping 🤣

I find simple things make me happy. I feel blessed with all the wonderful people that are around me, rather than destroying my sense of self with being around those who I simply do not like 🤣

I Google topics on what is happening for me. Like my feelings and thoughts, in order to understand how others cope, which makes me feel

I'm normal, despite my trauma and PTSD..

Cause I don't wanna be a victim

I don't wanna blame others in a sense for their wrong doings 

I simply don't have the strength and energy anymore to keep figting the past and the "poor me" mentality or who did what.

I want to continue to shine in my life 😎

[ShiningStar]

Hi @calmsoul 

It’s so lovely to hear from you 💜

I really enjoyed listening to this part of your story and I just wanted to say thank you so much for sharing these parts of your life with me 💜

Absolutely! It can take a little bit of time to become tech savvy 😆 When I first joined the forums I really struggled to understand how to tag people and so I think that you’re doing really great!

I’m so sorry to hear that the people who trigger your PTSD are members of your family and just from what you’ve shared, it’s completely understandable that you use ‘silence’ and ‘distance’ to protect yourself and keep yourself safe 💜

With that being said, I really love how you’ve chosen who will be a part of your life and it sounds like you’re surrounded by some really beautiful souls who build you up and nurture you 💜

Actually, what you said makes so much sense to me 😊 Once upon a time, I thought that the more people I had in my life the less alone I would feel. However over time, I’ve realised that (for me) what really helps to ease the loneliness is the quality of my relationships - not the number of people that I have in my life 💜

Oh wow! I love how you can knit! Some years ago, my best friend’s mum knitted me a beautiful patchwork blanket for my Birthday 💜 The blanket itself it quite large and it’s made up of hundreds of pink knitted squares as pink is my favourite colour 😊 It would have taken her such a long time to put it altogether and I absolutely treasure it - to the point where it never leaves my bed 😆 I just wondered do you knit anything in particular?

Absolutely! Fighting the past can become all consuming and utterly exhausting and as such, it makes so much sense that you’ve decided to use your strength and energy to create a different type of future for yourself 😊

I really loved how you said, ‘I want to continue to shine in my life’ and I just ever so gently wondered what this looks like for you?

I hope that the week ahead is kind to you 💜

Take care,

ShiningStar 💜

[Bism363]

Hi, my husband has a schizophrenia. He keep saying that I don't understand him.

While I am trying to support and help him. Unfortunately, it gives a big impact in our relationship.

I love him and frustated how to support him when he think he doesn't need medication

Learning from my situation, talking to your wife, made me feel, I wish my hubby does the same

[tyme]

Hi @Bism363 ,

Welcome to the forums!

Mental health certainly does impact relationships in one way or another. It sounds like your husband wants you to understand him, but he is not seeking the support he needs in terms of medication?

Have you ever had that conversation with him that you do want to understand him, and would it be okay to go to the doctor together to see how we can better understand?

We hope you both get the support you deserve.

[calmsoul]

@ShiningStar 

Hello from far yonder 🤠

I'm currently experiencing, what I like to call, "trauma brain" 🤣

My cognitive functioning is a bit slow off the mark, despite my morning coffee, it takes a while to start functioning !! 

my ability to write and form sentences seems to not what my brain wants to do 🤣

Which I'm glad I understand why it does this, otherwise I'd be reaserching lobotomies 🤣

Thank you for your kind words and support.

Your knitted blanket sounds beautiful xxx

I'm currently knitting scarves.

Wish I could show folks as I would love to give them away.

I can't remember what else your kind words were written 🤣

But please know, I appreciate and take comfort in support

Till next time ♥️🤠

[Daniel3]

Hi

I have had Schizoaffective since 1991 as well as ASD all my life. I'm 59 and live alone and have the NDIS. I study Liberal Arts at a Melbourne uni. I love cats and play guitar and sing! 

[tyme]

Hi @Daniel3 - A warm welcome to the forums!

Thank you for posting a little about yourself. It's great that you love playing the guitar. What type of guitar do you generally play?

Also, do yo have any cats?

[Geegee6]

Hi I have just joined up.  Fun fact.  I love my grandchildren.  I only talk with people I have never met.  

[Kyle1]

hi @Geegee6 

Welcome to the Forums.

Nice to not meet you!

[tyme]

Hehehehe @Kyle1 - true 🙂

Hey there @Geegee6 - great to have you join us. We don't have to meet. You can just join us whenever and wherever you feel able 🙂

Thanks for your fun facts 🙂