Share a cuppa?

[mr-robot-75]

@amber22 that sounds yummy!

Not travelling too well at the moment.  Slipping back down the deep dark well at the moment and feeling pretty hopeless.

Just don't see any future for me at the moment

[amber22]

I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling flustered tonight @ArraDreaming Is there any time tonight that you can take for yourself to have some me-time? That sounds like a hard day

[ArraDreaming]

I’m having it right now but I’m just annoyed also found out we have a mouse problem today so I’m not in a good mood @amber22

[amber22]

I'm so sorry that you feel like that at the moment, is there anything in particular that has made you feel this way? I'm sitting with you tonight ❤️ @mr-robot-75 

[amber22]

That's good that you're having some alone time now, I hope that it helps to fill your cup up a bit more. Oh no, that is not good, do you have to call someone in to get rid of the mice? @ArraDreaming 

[mr-robot-75]

@amber22 a combination of things. Pretty much been told that I'm not "manly" enough to be attractive by a few people recently.

And obviously Christmas/New Year etc.  I think there's a "hope" that the new year might start with a different flavour,  and then when it just stays the same I just figure I'm going to have as crap a year as every other year.  Just over the whole thing and not sure I want to spend another year alone and feeling abandoned like I doright now. 

Sorry. I'm not brilliant at rationalisation when I'm feeling like this. 

[ArraDreaming]

I just put traps down I put them down last summer and I think we caught the whole family because we stopped getting them, traps haven’t gone off for months then we caught one 2 days ago and 1 last night and one today. We live in a pretty old house with probably a few entry points. Put some poison under the house. Last time when this happened the agent told us it was our problem to deal with even though it’s nothing to do with us and our house is kept very clean and we never leave food out. I’m pretty annoyed also today our back laundry fell off it’s hinges and I have no idea why and then I hurt my food, and I’m sick of dealing with shit @amber22 

[amber22]

I'm sorry that someone said that to you @mr-robot-75 , that wasn't a nice thing for them to say, and people don't realise that words can really stick when you're already concerned about something. Especially towards the end of the year/ new year period it is really difficult as well. 

I think that the start of a 'new year' has such weight on it as well, and such pressure for so much to change that when it doesn't drastically change then it can be really disappointing. The key is to just take it one step at a time and try not to focus on the big picture because it can be really daunting, especially when you aren't in the best headspace or something else has hurt you.

I did just want to check, are you safe for now? I'm sitting with you while you are feeling like this and here to listen ❤️

[amber22]

Omg I do not have the patience to deal with agents sometimes! We have a similar situation at our house as its old and falling apart, but everything always seems to be our fault too! I hope that you can catch the mice soon, and I hope that your laundry gets fixed. I'm sorry to hear about your foot too. I hope that you have some time to rest before you sleep tonight!! @ArraDreaming 

[mr-robot-75]

@amber22 thankyou.  Safe for now.  😢 over the past two years I've gone through loss of a job, separation from my partner and now she's divorcing me so getting a comment like that just makes me more and more convinced there's little point even trying to attain happiness again. 

I'm pretty sure the few friends I have are sick of me being so down at the moment.  I'm a little scared that I'm too damaged even for this forum sometimes.  

From my perspective I just keep on wrecking things and feel like there is no place for me.  I've always felt left out but I guess it's really gone up another level.  

What's left of my rational mind says that I still have friends and the world is a pretty diverse place but it just feels like that the world has driven off and left me at the truck stop... if that makes sense. 

Sorry.