14th year house bound

[hiddenite]

Jacques sending you a virtual block of your favorite dark chocolate and a big hug

Karen

[Jacques]

Karen you are a beautiful person, thank you for being my friend.

Thankyou for telling me to breath, i was breathing too fast, i have slowed it down now, i am slowly calming, thank you for being their for me, i hope this does not last too any days, the world has too many triggers for me.

Karen i am so sorry, how did the girls go in their sports?, how are you tonight? i hope you get some sleep tonight, how is your little one?.

I am sorry Karen, i should be their for you, you had the tough day.

Thankyou for the chocolate and hug, it is much needed.

Thank you my friend.

Jacques

[hiddenite]

Great effort Jacques. It's so difficult to breathe when everything is in overwhelm.

J all that matters to me right now is that you are ok.

I had to ring lifeline to help me get back into the present, and help with the flashbacks.  It's been a tough day will all the triggers, but I'm fighting.

Forever friends

[Jacques]

Karen i am so sorry, i should be their for you, i am glad you reached out when it got too much, you poor thing, i hope you manage rest tonight, Keep fighting my angel, i will too, still teary but i am fighting it, i am shaking, the adrenaline is wearing off.

Oh Karen, we are a real mess aren't we, you poor thing, i hope my venting tonight didn't trigger you more, i am so sorry how selfish of me. i should know better, sorry Karen.

I am ok, i am about to start a mandalay, i so wish i could cry, let some emotion out, feel something.

Karen, you are so special to me, i am hanging on, i hope for a while, fighting is so hard, so exhausting.  you know what it is like.

Please rest up, and don't worry i am fine, i promise i will not do anything silly tonight. 

If you need some company i am here for you.

Thank you my angel for protecting me.

Jacques

[hiddenite]

Please don't be sorry j. Yea I get the bit where you just want to have a normal emotion. I would love to be able to cry. A healthy release......

Jacques I'm here

You are not alone 

Karen

[Jacques]

Hi My Angel,

Oh boy last night was tough for me, another night of broken sleep, i am feeling better this morning emotionally, still down, but not to the extreme of last night.

You are so kind to me Karne, thank you, you mean so much to me.

Yes i still can't cry, but it is nice to have a shoulder to lean on, someone who understands and supports me, thank you.

I hope you managed last night, i feel so angry with myself for not being their for you when you needed me. how are you this morning? how is your youngest daughter, is she feeling better?

I have some aphids on my new shrubs, so i am going to spray them this morning with some organic spray, i can't lose the shrubs now!!!!

I didn't walk this morning, too exhausted, but i am going to try to go out the shed today for a little while, i hope you manage to have a nice day, how is the house comming along?, i am still waiting for the electrician, i think he is really busy, then i need to organise a plumber to connect the 2 new taps, then i can get onto the laundry and kitchen.  Down at bunnings they have 6liters of ceiling white for $19.50, so i am going to get 2 of them to paint all the ceilings in the house, it will be nice to freshen them up.  i have to put some new cornices onto some of the house, so i might do that this weekend.

The rooster is driving me mad, he wil not shut up, he goes all day, neer of a morning though when all the other rosters in the area go off, they crow at 5am then stop, their is something wrong with him i think!!!!!

Anyway i just wanted to thank you for last night.

Take care, be safe, my angel

Jacques

[hiddenite]

Hey Jacques

I'm glad your feeling a little better. You must be exhausted after having such intense emotions.

I had an awful night I woke after a night terror, my whole body having convulsions. I couldn't stop them and I was so terrified.

Both daughter's are back at school, but I have to pick them up early they have an appointment with their psychologist.

I heading up to the house, time to get the carpet out.

I haven't managed phoning to get quotes for 're stumping.

Pretty disappointed in myself, not getting enough done.

I'm so glad you have made plans to distract Jacques. It will make the day a bit easier to manage.

Please take care stay safe and please there is no need to be sorry about anything.

Karen

[Jacques]

Hi Karen,

Yes the night terrors are very distressing I know, it is so hard to go to sleep after them too.

Karen you should not be disappointed about the progress, you had a sick little girl to look after, the house will always be their, take your time, I am, I used to try and rush things, it was too stressful.

Karen make sure you wear some gloves and dust mask and get so e good goggles, I bought a pair that seal around your face, like motorbike goggles, they are brilliant to keep dirt and dust from your eyes.

Please be safe and don't be to hard on yourself

Your friend

Jacques

[hiddenite]

Hey Jacques

I hope you had a productive day.

I was working at the house today pulling up carpet I wish I had read your post earlier. I will have to get some eye protection and gloves. The dust was awful. I ended up so overwhelmed.

I'm a mess.

Hope you are ok

Karen

[NikNik]

Hi @hiddenite

Sounds like you had a productive day! I always imagine that when you pull up carpet there will be these beautiful floorboards... in reality that never happens though - did it happen for you? What are your plans with the floor?

Nik