Does it ever change?

[Mimm]

Hey,
Sorry for posting again. Sort of feel like a bit of a bother. I just can't seem to shake my negative thoughts. I know that it's not going to change overnight. However before I use to have a day or so in between where my thoughts were okay. However lately, I go to bed and wake up with the exact same thoughts. It's like I'm stuck in a continual loop. I know It isn't an easy fix but I was just wondering does it ever change? I am just exhausted and feeling frustrated at the constant thoughts that seem to never leave. I hate having to tell my adopted family, how I truly feel each day so I have resulting in the usual comment of saying I am okay and or just tired. As I don't want to be that person who always reports back that I am feeling low, with destructive thoughts. It's not fair on them. I don't really know what else to put or say, I don't really know if there is an answer.

[Redraw]

Does it ever change............well fluctuations and alterations are always occuring but when it comes to a question of it getting better well any answer would create a conflux of more theories and questions, to say no would be ridiculous as people have come back from the brink yet to say yes raises questions of how, why, where and when, which sadly has no static answer as some find a way through yet how may not do anything for anyone else. I experience fairly consistent downs coupled with some extreme lows I try to divert my focus, sadly friends and such are mostly non existent so my distractions come in the form of drawing, some writing, creating stories in my head, anything that creates something that can overcome be stronger, be what I envision them to be, but again that's just what I try I am rarely successful with it as blocks form or something goes wrong and I back away from it, i really wish I had some great advice for you, I am sure you have much potential and a lot to offer 

[Appleblossom]

I think of spirals and fractals .. too bloody cerebral I know ...

Sometimes life seems very Circular but the loops can weave this way and that ... sometimes I like to look at art to rest my mind and that helps me shift slghtly.

warm regards

[NikNik]

Hi @Mimm

I think you will find many people here in this community would say, Yes it can change. But as the others have mentioned, sometimes things can fluctuate and sometimes we can have a good run. 

It can be so frustrating when we travel not so well for an extended period. An image I always share with others is something that really resonates with me:

I'm not sure if you have mentioned this elsewhere, but so you have support (professional / friends / family?) I know it can be hard to telling family and friends that you're not okay - but you don't have to go through this alone.

And of course, this wonderful community is here too 🙂