Writing As A Form Of Therapy

[PeppiPatty]

I'm reading I'm listening to you @BlueBay

@Silenus @Former-Member @eudemonism @Former-Member

[eudemonism]

I'm unhappy about my situation in general, and the overall progress of my treatment, and the status of my recovery. The system has diagnosed me as having a mental illness, and they have a treatment plan in place for my recovery from the mental illness, and I would like to step things up a notch. - So I know I'm as well as I can be... And so my long term prognosis is always looking better and more optimistic.

I'm indeed very grateful, thankful and appreciative for the collaboration of all people who have supported me on my journey through living with mental illness. - and both professionals and ordinary people have both served as equal sources of support and help. - in particular my peers...

Trying to navigate the complicated mental health system. Is indeed a very daunting task and procedure for anyone. And bye no means has it been enjoyable or easy. - in actual fact it's probably been the opposite.

[BlueBay]

Thankyou @PeppiPatty ❤️

[BlueBay]

I’m in a dark place 

I’m in a crazy world 

I’m in a negative thought 

it’s a hour by hour process 

doctors on alert 

they’re all concerned 

I could explode anytime 

it’s fragile time for me 

I feel exhausted weak 

emotional angry overwhelmed

frustrsted snd scared 

this is me right now 😥😥😥

I’m isolated in my room. No one understands me at home. I’m doing this on my own. And it’s bl***y hard. 

[PeppiPatty]

 I'm reading poems thread started by @Silenus. 

I must shift immediately back to the present poems by @BlueBay a couple of paragraphs by @eudemonism. 

Where are you  @Appleblossom? I need your influence.

This is definitely not for everyone but For me...Out of everyone, Apple and I have had the most varied and interesting relationship...I am not ignoring people like @Mazarita or @Former-Member @Jacques @eth or @Shaz51 @CheerBear or anyone...I have forgotten others who I love and adores but Apple.....for me your the one who gets under my skin in a nice creative......I get the sitting by the flowers and drinking cups of tea time while classical music is playing and not being bored. 

[PeppiPatty]

I'm trying to describe something here but it's difficult when Mr Buddha is wanting my input which sunglasses he should wear and which cap should he put on his head. 

When @BlueBay wrote the last poem, really good.

 read some poems from @Silenus and thought, yep...I feel like these poems when I get along my daily days.

I find @Silenus more difficult to read because they are longer and my reading is shot but if I read and read little bits at a time, I can read. 

Like this silly message is becoming. LOL

And then @eudemonism.....this is what I relate to so thank you @BlueBay and @eudemonism. For me I would write different words to evoke my emotion but I get your poems and paragraphs to evoke yours 

x

[Appleblossom]

Thanks  @PeppiPatty for your warmth and fondness.  Oh dear re Mr Peppi

I tried to focus on writing for a bit, but the things I want to write about are so sad and I lost the will and energy and went downhill.  It seemed wiser for my mental health to keep doing music.  I keep writing high on my bucket list, but I obviously need more support and a better situation if I am to focus on those things.  So best left til I am ready.

I smile as I dont relax and listen to classical music enough. I need to do it.

Love Apple

[PeppiPatty]

Lets us both think of one word at a time @Appleblossom .......

There's no hurry. Victor Frankel falls in my thoughts .......

You know the story Apple. Victor Frankel writes :

One searches for self-discovery &

 pursuit of what we personally find meaningful.

One breathe at a time.......

 

[eudemonism]

Ah... What does the future really hold? For me? Or for anyone? I'm sure that nobody is sure... When one thinks about death... One may think there is no point to life at all... One may also wish they were not alive... So they needed to not worry anymore. Life and living is most surely vein... Death and being dead... Has to be the most comfortable and peaceful place. Asleep forever. Resting for eternity. Never to worry again. Being alive is more most surely vein.. Oh what troubles come with existing in vein?

[eudemonism]

What a wonder day, today is going to be? I'm going to frolic in the sunshine and skip along like nothing is wrong... I'm going to be so grateful, appreciative and thankful for being alive... I'm going to be full of confidence, self esteem & feed my healthy ego... I will feel redeemed, saved and chosen to be happy... I will see only what is loving, graceful and joyful... And I will not let reality get to me...