Hey @greenspace ,
Yes, it is pretty bleak, but this is where I'm at. I do follow some ADHD-related stuff on YouTube. I get some sense of not being alone, watching the videos and reading the comments... until I try to contribute, myself. I have never known of anyone to be so completely blanked on these forms of social media. Whenever I try it, I see hundreds or even thousands of comments - no matter how old or new, how long or short, how compelling or pointless, they all have some form of interaction with them, a comment or like or something. If I comment, it is singularly ignored in every way, the only one on a crowded page showing no sign anyone even knows I'm there. As far as I can tell, I'm not particularly socially inept or unusually repugnant, but this is consistently my experience in places like that which seem like they may have an inclusive community spirit. As I said, outsider among outsiders. I'm no idiot, but I am at a loss to comprehend why.
Medicare is so far behind real pricing. I just can't afford the help I need, or at least nowhere near often enough, and I'm sure there are others far worse off than I.
I have some familiarity with body-doubling. I haven't tried any sites or anything online. My partner and I do it for each other, at times. One of us will just be company for the other, or do another job in the same vicinity to just be near. His main role in that is reminding me of what I'm meant to be doing when I start veering off to do something else, and it definitely helps. Also back during the last lockdown, I would sometimes video call with my sister when I was cooking, treat it like I was making a YouTube video - that was fun, and explaining what I was doing to someone who didn't know my process engaged me better and made it more interesting. Of course, if it's more interesting, my mind stays on track much more readily, and the job gets done. So yeah, it's helpful, I recommend it.
As for the dishwasher... nope. One disaster after another kept hitting the hip pocket, and by the time we had decided on the dishwasher we wanted and had some money aside, oh look, it's sold out. That was about a month ago, there still aren't any. Going back to the drawing board on researching another one so we don't waste a pile of money on something that's going to break down in a hurry hasn't been a thing because we've spent almost all of our time this year bouncing between the hospital and the vet, so there goes both the money and the mental focus to deal with anything of the sort. Life says no to us having things that let us get on with life. Funny about that.
Apologies for such a cynical post, it's been quite a year.
AFK.
