11-09-2018 05:02 AM
11-09-2018 05:02 AM
Thanks, @CheerBear, and good to see you again this morning.
I wish I knew what bird it is that calls these mornings. Its music is two notes together, and then a pause, then another two notes, repeated. Not sure how I could find out the species of bird but I love to hear it anyway. I've got the door open here so I can hear it, and the other sounds of the word starting to wake up. They are much less romantic, being occasional trucks on the highway and a generally slowly increasing hum of traffic. Soon the sky will start to lighten, which will be a relief after this aggravating night. I always sleep better after daybreak. My long habit of staying up all night in the past may be part of the reason for this. Trying to change that pattern, but it isn't easy to rewire years and years of it. Still, I shall persist, in the interests of better health and wellbeing in the long run.
11-09-2018 05:13 AM
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Hugs for your difficult sleeps too, @CheerBear. The up side is that you get to see the dawn on so many mornings, something that I imagine brings greater feelings of connection to the cycles of life.
Yesterday I didn't make it to women's group. But I did some even better things in the afternoon: caught the bus to the local village shops, lunched at my favourite pie shop, wandered around the op shops there and found a nice summery top for five dollars. Then I walked home along the beach. Probably walked about 2.5 kilometres. My dodgy feet gave me a little grief. But I'm glad to be getting out on the beach more regardless.
How was your yesterday? Plans for today?
11-09-2018 05:29 AM
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That is hard news that the radiation therapy hasn't worked well for your person, @CheerBear. Good to hear there are other options, and that these will involve being able to walk again. But a difficult surgery and long recovery sounds daunting. Wishing all of you the very best with the process.
Hope there is some good relaxing time for you today, around the new mental health worker meet, and the counselling. Do you enjoy your counselling sessions? How will the mental health worker help you?
I have a quiet day here, but plan to do washing, some more housework (did some yesterday too), and some admin on video stuff that's happening. During the two months of deep depression, good things were nonetheless happening in terms of future screenings of my videos already completed. I had more good news on that in the middle of this night. But it means providing some written and visual material for these things to happen, which I will be attending to today.
11-09-2018 05:48 AM
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I prefer Margherita to Malaria, @CheerBear.
I can see how the counselling might be very challenging. Great that you like the counsellor though. Is volunteering something you really want to do? Seems to me like you already have a decent sized job caring for the LFs, and for your self at this time. When I was with Phams, it was pretty much standard for them to push the idea of volunteering to everyone. I tried doing it but only lasted three shifts before crashing out, just as I have done in pretty much every job I've ever had. It didn't really leave me with a good feeling afterwards, just confirmed my sense of limitation really. And I was too embarrassed to go back to that place afterwards, which was a shame, as I used to go there a lot prior to this. I guess what I'm saying is that you are in charge and it would be good not to be pressured into that if you don't feel it would help at this time. On the other hand, if it's something you want to do, that's great and could be very rewarding.
I feel good about the videos getting screened internationally, and I'm used to preparing documentation for these things. It felt less than possible to do much of it while I was in the deep depression. But now that I'm coming out of it, I'm glad to be putting my toes back in the video-making waters in this way.
Well, the sky is light now and the chorusing birds are taking a bit of time out. I'll head back to bed now that the prn has relaxed my body a little. Look forward to catching you next time. Have a lovely day, my friend. Hugs!
11-09-2018 06:27 AM
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Good morning @Mazarita and @CheerBear I was awake a couple of times while you were chatting and nearly turned the computer on - wishing I had now.
Maz I hope you're getting some deeper sleep now and feel more refreshed next time you wake up. Great news about more video screenings. And that you're getting out more than you did for quite some time. You seem to be in much better spirits and progressing steadily.
CB I hope your day is going well so far. I hear you about support people pushing us versus encouraging us. Maybe you can write down your goals in baby steps (before you see your MH worker) and then try to put them in order of priority. And then show the MH worker what you've written. And maybe even tell them that you're just not ready for volunteer work yet, but still want more support with community engagement i.e. groups, classes etc (if that is what you want). You have the right to have choice and control over what goals you set and what path you choose. It's ok to not be ready for 'work readiness assessment' which it sound like the worker might be doing. Especially if you only recently got your DSP. Hopefully what I've said is appropriate to your situation and desires.
Hello to anyone else around this morning
11-09-2018 09:30 AM
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