Hi @eth it seems you and I share that obsessive tendency, both of us works in progress in growing the balance in different areas of our lives, as we have already done in many ways along the way. I believe we have both been successful in gaining greater balance already when looking back over our wilder times.
Seems to me a good choice with rolling over the plan, a more relaxed option. Perhaps my main inspiration in recovery at this time in life is greater ease of mind, heart and spirit. More enjoyment and a fuller realisation that I am a good person and enough.
Related to this I am understanding mindfulness in a new way, something I've previously been hazier about. This, despite being first introduced to mindfulness over thirty years ago by my first psychiatrist and having engaged with it in different ways and at different times of my life. I have always found it hard to get a real grip on what it means.
But this first month or so of ndis support has been very body-focused, with therapists trained and experienced in physical healing and in mindfulness. Without really having to strain or push myself much at all, I find myself connecting more in this healing way to the body and senses. The benefits to health and enjoyment of myself and the world are already noticable.
Being released from some of the physical pain in itself is understandably helping as well. I continue now to feel blessed by this ndis journey, after the earlier hurdles of bureaucracy and strong resistance in myself to that, and the politics of the whole scheme. Now I am grateful.
