14th year house bound

[hiddenite]

Must be the night for it Jacques. Alone and scared in the mhu tears are flowing and there's no one here that cares

[Jacques]

Oh Karen, i am so sorry, look what i have done to you, sorry if my writing is bad, i am shaking so bad, Karen i am here for you, i will make an effort to talk.

sorry Karen.

@CherryBomb, i know you have not said i will be removed, i thought we agreed when i was distressed not to come onto the forums.  i am distresses. so i am trying not to say something i will regret, or you guys will need to intervene with.

[Jacques]

Karen it is 41 degrees here today, i have not left the house for 4 days, i have not even looked out the window.  feeling so numb, lost, confused and scared. 

I told mum i would talk her down, but she is insisting i go to the dinner. so yay i have 4 weeks of panic now, this is going to really help me sleep and cope.  i wish i lived far away from everyone, all mum's friends and famiily. where no one knows me. i often joke to mum of applying for the mars mission, so i can be alone.

[hiddenite]

Jacques im crying because im scared. Alone and triggering badly.
im so worried about you.
and im struggling not having a safe place to go

[Jacques]

sorry Karen i have made things so tough for you emotionally, i don't take to change too well, my moods have been on a down hill slide for months.

Karen maybe it would be better if you speak to others on here, maybe i am only going to hurt you, you mean to much to me to do any harm, others on here are more positive than me, they can make you happy. if you want me to stop talking at anytime i will understand. 

You are in my thoughts all day every day, without exception. 

i will not get upset if you want to stop talking to me Karen, you don't need me putting extra worry and pressure on you.

[Jacques]

Karen you are not alone, i am always here for you, maybe the best you can do in their is to close your eyes and imagine your safe place, in the 4X4 next to the running river.  hear the sound, smell the water, hear the birds. Imagine Karen.......

[hiddenite]

Lets see Ive been here 8 day's I haven't been allowed outside around 20 strange people half men.
im alone numb lost and confused.
I need to go home but they wont let me.

[CherryBomb]

@Jacques and @hiddenite,

By distress we mean, that if you are feeling distressed to the point of SH then contacting crisis support services, or speaking with your mum, is an appropriate place for support. 

As you know we are not a crisis support service, so want to ensure that you can get appropriate support that can help you through this.

We need to know that both you and @hiddenite are safe, and that you are linked in with the approprite care. 

[Jacques]

Karen i am so sorry i have not been here for you this week, sorry you are being treated so badly in their, i so wish you where home too, Karen i am so scared for you and me. please stay safe, i just can't control my emotions tonight.

I don't want to worry mum, it sends her diabeties up when she is stressed so, @CherryBomb i will cope on my own, i have in the past.

[hiddenite]

Jacques you have you mindfulness to keep you in the present
Use your 5 senses

breathing meditation
Break your day into hours Plan to distract

foot meditation

When you hurt so do I


posative affirmations