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[Mishmash1]

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[Jynx]

Hey there @Mishmash1 welcome to the forums. Glad to have you with us 😊

I'm sorry that it took so long for you to get a proper diagnosis, and that your experiences with treatment in the past have been unhelpful, or even made things worse for you. Unfortunately it's something you're not alone in, but you're in good company here - many folks can empathise with your experiences. I really hope your current treating team does right by you and provides you with the best care. It can be a bit of a lucky dip to find the right person with whom you can feel safe, build trust, and make progress, but it is for sure possible, no matter your age! 

We're here to walk alongside you in this journey 💜

P.S. We got some Tips & Tricks to help you get around, and of course don't hesitate to reach out if you have any questions about the forums! 

[Mishmash1]

It feels hopeless because i always hit brick walls when i get the courage to reach out. The biggest struggle I have is getting support. None of the agencies I've approached know of ptsd support groups and finding an available trauma psychologist is impossible in WA 😢 

[Zoe7]

@Mishmash1 You have taken that brave step to reach out here and we hear you. I, too, am in my 50s and it took a long time to 'recover' from cPTSD (among other things). I am fortunate to have a wonderful team around me but I cannot understate how much it has been SANE that has helped me. I hope you find some support here and can feel a part of this wonderful community also.

[WhiteRaven]

Hello, my daughter has an anxiety disorder and ptsd. Even though I can’t speak from direct experience. Her courage comes from compassion for others, it seems you too are compassionate from the way you value your family. And from her growth through ptsd she is more understanding of others pain than most. If your wife is like you she probably wont like not being there for you. From my own experience being able to find the words to describe how I’m feeling helps. There are guides from mental health sites like this one to help people talk about these vulnerable subjects with their loved ones. You don’t have to be alone, even if finding someone to help isn’t easy. I hope this helps.

[tyme]

Hi @WhiteRaven ,

Thank you for sharing.

It is certainly helpful to hear of other's experiences. I see that your daughter, and most likely you, have grown much through experiences.

Just a little hinter, when responding to someone's post, you can type "@" in front of their name so they get a personalised notification and won't miss your post of support 🙂 Like this @tyme 

We look forward to seeing you around on the forums.

[WhiteRaven]

Hello everyone, I have prolonged depressive disorder and I care for my daughter who is living with anxiety, ptsd, borderline personality disorder, and premenstrual dysphoric disorder. 

I think there might be something other than PDD going on with me neurologically. A lot of my distress comes from the difference between my intention and actions and what other people experience from me. I think I’m being humble and respectful but that’s not the feedback I’m getting, to be polite. So often I’m baffled hurt as to how I could miscommunicate my self so badly. I’ve always struggled with feeling like there’s something intrinsically wrong with me, or I’m out of sync with everyone else. I just don’t know what’s going on or how to be authentic when I thought I was.

Maybe it’s just a new and fun dimension to my PDD, maybe the PDD is consequence of something else. Does anyone hay any leads?

[WhiteRaven]

Oh ok, thanks.

[tyme]

Hey @WhiteRaven ,

Very interesting. I have BPD so I know firsthand how difficult it is to live with people like me!

It sounds like you have a lot on your plate. Do you have enough supports in place for yourself?

Have you ever spoken to a professional about your experiences with your actions and words being miscommunicated to people? Is this a regular thing? I wonder if a psychologist or someone can conduct some test to do with social communication etc?? I really don't know.

I've worked with autistic young people who struggle with communication and the social aspects of life. They find it helpful when they are explicitly taught social skills. 

Life's like trial and error sometimes, right?

Whatever it is, great to have you with us.

[WhiteRaven]

@tymethank you for your reply. Unfortunately I do not have support nor the funds to pay for it. I did in the past but standards required for care are restrictive. 

In the past a therapist has said that I am emotionally isolating myself and that I am very hard on myself. It has been an ongoing problem since childhood, I’ve always been considered odd or people assume I’m not local. 

I agree some professional testing is a good idea. I have been asked if I thought I was on the spectrum, however I didn’t think so as I’m happily extroverted, who find talking and listening to people rewarding without trouble understanding people’s thoughts and feelings. That’s why I’m feeling so blind sided. As well as not having any other symptoms and in some ways the opposite, except the occasional info dump. 

There have just been so many little things that make me think I shouldn’t just accept nothings going on because I think I’m not the problem.

I’ve learned to keep learning, and others experience is a grate resource and comfort. I will check out resources for autistic people and communication, no doubt I’ll find something I can apply.

thank you again.