Falling apart

[dands26]

@Determined its not just sabotage of the relationship but also of mr.s progress in general.

Lets hope tomorrow goes okay. We need to get through that.

[PeppiPatty]

Dear @dands26

It's grea that at least you are able to write down self care plans.

Which state do you live in? I live in Western Australia. I do go down the beach every day but it can be stressful because of my daily wellbeing.

I personally like mindfullness meditation: I started with Jon Kabat Zinn: "Wherever You Go there you are," and the other one that you played.

The first meditation I ever did is here: https://youtu.be/7Ap_-F9D5Gw

But it goes for 6 hours .......it is nice: Very nice just to listen to.........

[dands26]

I live in queensland @PeppiPatty
I will have a listen to that one also 🙂
I am still learning self - care
Learning what to do
Apologise for everything
Does it get easier?

[PeppiPatty]

Does it get easier?

Um......

It gets easier in that the routine gets into a swing and you relax in the routine.

Timetables are so important in mine and Mr g's life.

Does is get easier?

My love for Mr g is more grounded.

We have had huge highs and huge lows: things that most people would have walked away from and right now; today; I was thinking that it would be very easy to walk away and I would have a great story of why I walked away. 

But

Short term/ exciting high feelings of excitement love are not for me. Mr g works so so hard every day to be with me and I'm always working at being kind. Who would want to throw that away? 

So:

Patience.

Being quiet at times for the other to work out stuff.

At the end of the day: not going to bed with huge apologies and reflecting on the GOOD as well and the bad. 

Writing a timetable for tomorrow/ letting him do it is good. 

Remembering that every day; MI means that the sufferer wakes up with their condition.

Does it get easier?

Yes. 

If you keep up your self care. 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Great answer @PeppiPatty .... ❣️

[PeppiPatty]

I needed to read that @Faith-and-Hope

Thankyou....

I didnt think if it was good enuf......

It heped me clarify some things in my mind though. 

[Faith-and-Hope]

You often write sage thoughts @PeppiPatty ..... ❣️

[dands26]

@PeppiPatty your answer was great.
Just what i needed.
I know in myself i can do it.
Just somedays i feel like i can't

[Determined]

Thankyou @PeppiPatty

I needed to hear that right now, gives me hope...

Even gp wondered yesterday why I was hanging on so tight, caused me to doubt myself so your message came at the right time. 

Self care is the key, I have not done real self care for too long, 

[Determined]

Thinking of you today @dands26, trust it all goes ok