Lived Experience Forum

[MDT]

Of loneliness and that I'm in this on my own

I feel so disconnected from everyone. And everything  

I'm confused over my direction.

I feel a loser in my own world.

Depsite achieving things I don't feel it.

Where are my friends? Where are those who like me? Why do I feel so lonesome? 

I am trying to be good and genuine. 

But idk what to do. 

I need to let go of some people in my mind because they don't bother talking back to me 

I need to move on from some others. 

But most of all, perhaps these times more than any other Where I now feel lonely and stuck alone... it is now when I must be good to myself and not so harsh. 

[Anastasia]

Hi @MDT I see you, I hear you.

Your mind is being very cruel to you right now it. You deserve support, compassion, kindness. I'm sorry you feel alone, lonely. It's a difficult feeling to sit with. I feel both most of the time. Being here helps. I hope it does for you too?

You are a harsh critic on yourself @MDT. I wonder why? I read something recently it went a bit like this...

Have you ever stopped to think how other/s are wishing they could be more like you?

I'm certain that others irl see you quite differently to the way you do Hams. I for one think you are highly intelligent and have a great deal to offer both in personal and business life. Go gently with yourself dear friend 🙏

[MDT]

Very kind @Anastasia
Thank you for that

Good night and see you tomoz

[CherrieRoyale]

I feel the same

[Owen45]

Yes, loneliness is terrible, I can identify. No family, relatives, partner...my mental health is not good. Such a cruel society.

[Owen45]

I can identify

[outlander]

i dont have any advice @MDT but i do relate to what your saying

[MDT]

hi @outlander @Owen45 @CherrieRoyale

Thanks for supporting. Yes. It's hard.

I am just trying to distract myself I guess by focusing on tasks and goals.

Simetimes I connect better with people much easier and more meaningful in other places and countries.

Weird isn't it

Take care all and be good to yourselves

[outlander]

no not really @MDT i have connected better with people in other places too, and mostly its people that i havent even met as well. i think part of it is being online, you can be anyone you want to be. those shy or timid people often feel more comfortable in talking to strangers or talking online. I find it hard to talk to people in real life but put a screen between me and another person you wouldnt be able to pick it.

[MDT]

Hmm @outlander
At work I joked with a colleague that I wa shy and she didn't believe me

I agree thay if people are timid or shy in real life it is hard
Bit I think if you are genuine in life it isn't easy all the time as there is so much fake bs out there.
These days I just want to be accepted for who I am.
Its harder now too I think.
This is why I feel so rank and alone I guess...

Idk aye.

Good night and see you around


Thanks for sharing